Confessions of a Fugitive Mind
April 23, 2003
Grow Some II
Let me make a few things clear in case they weren't already:
1. Dan, Sam, and I share an apartment. There are no other roommates. So, "all of Dan's roommates except Sam" = me. It is not a blanket statement, but a veiled personal attack.
2. I have nothing against Amanda. And I never have. In fact, I will agree with "a friend" who couldn't leave their name and go so far as to say that she is indeed a cool girl. I don't think we have exchanged much more than a few cursory greetings and jokes, so I wouldn't presume to make any judgements of her. It is a shame that she has chosen to judge me with such a limited knowledge.
3. I really have nothing against Dan. We did a lousy job of handling a typical roommate dispute. There was some name-calling, yelling, and a lot of fuming. I wrote about it in this journal to sort my feelings and blow off a little steam before I tried to talk to him about it. In the end, I was only disappointed that he didn't let me know how much things were bothering him earlier because I would've taken care of them then. It sucks to be a bad roommate and not even know it.
4. It takes balls to be honest in a public journal. Its not always easy, but I try. There are many times when I would rather elude to someone or some event because its easier. But being honest to my readers (and consequently, myself) helps me grow as a person. I am frustrated when I read a public journal that tries to veil its meaning because it indicates that the author is scared of expressing their true feelings. By the same token, I am troubled when I read one that all but comes clean. Its author is only scared of accepting responsibility for their feelings. If any aspect of public journaling is immature, its that kind of passive aggression.
5. When Amanda made backhanded comments about me on her site, it upset me. Who wouldn't be upset to find out someone was talking trash about them online? It particularly bothered me because I didn't realize Amanda held such strong negative opinions of me. She has been nice to me, but her comments made me doubt the sincerity of her actions over the last eight months.
6. As far as I'm concerned, Amanda and her comments aren't my problem. I noted them in my journal, said my piece, and moved on. Now I've even clarified my position so that nothing is misconstrued. I'm done. Maybe everyone else should be too.
Posted by criminal at April 23, 2003 01:26 AM
Comments
ok now that you're this big expert on who should grow balls and what it means to have balls (which, excuse me, does not include writing your feelings in a live journal. that simply means that you're arrogant enough to assume that everyone wants to read about your trivial matters), i just have one thing to say to eric- you seem fond of making sweeping generalizations such as how people who smoke pot cant *have things under control*. As a financial math major with a 3.6 gpa and one year til graduation, i would go so far as to say i have things under control. oh yea and i smoke pot every day. Its almost like saying all gay people are flaky and have poor characters ;)
Posted by: michele at April 23, 2003 03:26 PM
Just cause there's so much negativity goin' round, here's a little list of why Sarah is wonderful....
1. She's smart beyond reason (think A. Einstein meets e.e. cummings)
2. She has an often ironic and lighthearted sense of humor and is one of the few people that can laugh at herself and know when it's alright to laugh with/at other people.
3. She has an artisic creativity which is unrivaled. Charcoals, collage, and even crafts are original and soulful.
4. She has a superior work ethic. You will never see a project, assignment, or task to which she is assigned that is not done with supreme care and is above and beyond the guidelines requested.
5. She is incredible with dates, deadlines and working under pressure. Rarely does she show any signs of stress and can remain calm long after others are running amuck.
6. Sarah can forgive faults in others and admitt her own with dignity and humbleness. She does not hold grudges, and this is truley a trait to be admired since I and others seldom posses this ability.
7. She has respect and kindness for all animals, both two and four-legged (and judgeing from some of the comments posted earlier this week I use the term animal loosely.)
8. Sarah is beautiful. Unlike many others her beauty is beyond skin deep. She has heart that shines.
I wish all of you could see the beauty, honesty and kindness that I have seen in Sarah. We should all strive for these qualities and not belittle each other for their lack.
Ummm....and last I heard being homosexual doesn't kill brain cells. If you feel that smoking pot on a daily basis is fine now please rethink your decision and stop today. Long term use causes short term memory loss and eventually long term memory loss. As in many other cases (cigarettes, heart disease, alheimers, alcohol) the damage caused by smoking pot increases over time (both with and without continued use). If you do not believe this get a neuroscan now and another in five years. The holes that appear in the brain are caused by unnaturally fast depletion of brain cells. Just because all functions of all parts of the brain are unknown does not mean that they're unimportant. Goodluch with whatever your decision in the matter.
Posted by: Barbie at April 24, 2003 02:19 AM
:::::::::Hug:::::::::: Don't let it get you down Sarah :)
Posted by: Rachel at April 24, 2003 08:30 AM
Wow, defending your drug addiction.... your parents must be proud.
Posted by: Eric at April 25, 2003 12:40 AM